all of my time
Every time I see the doctor I say I'm giving it my best
But my body disagrees with all these pills that I ingest
It feels like everything is my fault and i will never feel complete
Cuz I'm not worthy of the love my old friends never had for me
And I spend so much time complaining about how hard it is to change
That I am worried that the truth is I will never have the strength
It's too late
It's too late for me
And I spend all of my time dreaming about the person I could be
If I just got my sh*t together to let my sleepy sore eyes see
That all my plots could become gardens if I let nature run its course
And if I'd learned to love completely I'd be this overwhelming force
But every time I see the doctor I say it's really hard to change
And i am worried that the truth is i will never have the strength
It's too late
It's too late for me
It's too late
Too late
Every morning that I wake up is another chance to be
Something better than the pain that all my failures left for me
I keep digging up my flaws instead of letting myself bloom
I let my body waste away before it's placed inside it's tomb
And every time I see the doctor she says these changes need to start
But I am worried that the truth is there is nothing left but pain in my heart
I am tired of feeling broken
I am tired of wondering if I will ever live up to my full potential
I am tired of wondering if I will ever do anything meaningful with my life
Then again, how can I ever expect to change the world
If I keep letting the world change me
better better better
I've been
Having
A tough time
Adjusting
To all
The changes
That this year
Has thrown me
No I'm not trying to rewrite the past but I
I want my future to have more of a say
And I'm not trying to be someone else I'm just
Trying to be someone who could learn to love you better
So I'll be BETTER, BETTER, BETTER
I wanna be BETTER, BETTER, BETTER
Cuz I know I've made mistakes but I
Don't want my mistakes to make me
So I'll be BETTER, BETTER, BETTER
I've been
Asking
The wrong questions
The whole time
Like why am
I the one
Who never gets to be the hero of the story
Cuz I've been desperate to be more than just
The culmination of everything I've done wrong
And now I finally see where the truth is
And it's a chance for me to learn to love you better
So I'll be BETTER, BETTER, BETTER
I wanna be BETTER, BETTER, BETTER
Cuz I know I've made mistakes but I
Don't want my mistakes to make me
So I'll be BETTER, BETTER, BETTER
And at the end of the day when I close my eyes
I think about all of the people who make me smile
I closed off every single one of them in spite of their attempts
To tell me everything okay and and i deserve a second chance
If I could gather all the strength left in my heart to persevere
Through all the selfish bitter sadness I allowed myself to feel
Then maybe I would have the chance to finally be a better friend
To all the people I will love until the very bitter end
And at the end of the day when I close my eyes
I think about all of the people who saved my life
Cuz I don't know where I would be if they hadn't chosen to stay
And reassure me that they love me and that things would be okay
Because the truth is that I love them with all my heart
And I will love them til the day my sickly body falls apart
So I'll get BETTER BETTER BETTER
I promise to get BETTER BETTER BETTER
gracefulness
Maybe if you'd ask me how I feel
I'd be brave enough to say
That everything I do feels like a chore
I've forgotten why I stayed
Maybe if the sun would show its face
I could learn to let things go
And turn the other cheek towards what I hate
Could it be that I've lost hope?
But gracefulness has never blessed my path
I still shake with every step
I'm doomed with every failure I repeat
To fuck up every chance I get
Maybe if I found another light
Somewhere deep inside my soul
I could find strength to hold a torch
To all the hopes that make me whole
But sometimes in my heart I feel the shame
Of a man who failed to see
That all he had to do was love himself
To see how happy he could be
But gracefulness has never blessed my path
I still shake with every step
I'm doomed with every failure I repeat
To fuck up every chance I get
No gracefulness has never blessed my path
I still shake with every step
Ungrateful for the patience that I lack
I'll fuck up every chance I get
No gracefulness has never blessed my path
I still shake with every step
I'm doomed with every failure I repeat
To fuck up every chance I get
No gracefulness has never blessed my path
I still shake with every step
Ungrateful for the patience that I lack
I'll fuck up every chance I get
on the way home
I see the way
I see the way that you look at me
Scared of the day
Scared someday I might see things differently
But I will be here if you will be here
I will stay close if you will stay near
Before I leave you tell me don't go
But I promise to call you on the way home
I see the way
I see the way that you smile at me
Scared of the day
Scared someday I might leave you suddenly
But I will be here if you will be here
I will stay close if you will stay near
Before I leave you tell me don't go
But I promise to call you on the way home
Come home
Come home
Come home
Come home
I will be here if you will be here
I will stay close if you will stay near
Before I leave you tell me don't go
But I promise to call you on the way home