"and I spend all of my time dreaming
about the person I could be
If I just got my shit together"
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all of my time - lyrics
Every time I see the doctor I say I’m giving it my best
But my body disagrees with all these pills that I ingest
It feels like everything is my fault and I will never feel complete
Cuz I’m not worthy of the love my old friends never had for me
And I spend so much time complaining about how hard it is to change
That I am worried that the truth is I will never have the strength
It’s too late
It’s too late for me
And I spend all of my time dreaming about the person I could be
If I just got my sh*t together to let my sleepy sore eyes see
That all my plots could become gardens if I let nature run its course
And if I’d learned to love completely I’d be this overwhelming force
But every time i see the doctor I say it’s really hard to change
And I am worried that the truth is i will never have the strength
It’s too late
It’s too late for me
It’s too late
Too late
Who could I be?
Let my eyes see
Who could I be?
Every morning that I wake up is another chance to be
Something better than the pain that all my failures left for me
I keep digging up my flaws instead of letting myself bloom
I let my body waste away before it’s placed inside it’s tomb
And every time I see the doctor she says these changes need to start
But I am worried that the truth is there is nothing left but pain in my heart
I am tired of feeling broken
I am tired of wondering if I will ever live up to my full potential
I am tired of wondering if I will ever do anything meaningful with my life
Then again, how can I ever expect to change the world
If I keep letting the world change me
Credits
Written and Produced by Modern Crybaby (hey that's me!)
Produced, Mixed, and Mastered by Dylan Schroth Audio (yes, that's also me)
dylanschrothaudio.com
Artwork by Diana Pak
Additional Background Vocals and Guitars by Jason Call